Phases in life...FALL

I am in the FALL of my life.  Perhaps, as a result, some changes have happened to me lately.

1. I started walking every day
2. We took a wine class and have 6 gallons brewing, 6 more planned to start this coming week...and a batch of beer planned
3. We froze a few gallons of tomato-pepper combinations for healthy alternative to canned goods
4. Bruce is taking salads to work in his lunch every day

Are we changing?  It appears so.

I started thinking about what I would like to be doing in 5 years and in 10 years.  No change for either of the years.

1. Enjoying visits from family and friends
2. Sitting on my deck sipping our homemade wine/brew with #1
3. Cultivating a garden of as organic as possible veggies and fruits - enough for us for the year and some gifts.

30 years.

1. I am sitting on the deck in the summer sun after my second walk of the day. 
2. No longer have an issue with sun sensitivity on my smooth, but elderly skin.
3. Fall asleep (permanently) on the deck with a half-drank glass of my home-made wine, a just finished book on the table beside me. 
4. All final arrangements made, so noone has to worry about anything.
5. Everyone celebrates my humanity.

Inferiority, Narcissism, Egoism and Pathological liars.

An old Blog from 2011

While my life is generally pretty wonderful, a few things can throw a cloud over my day.

• Reading stupid stuff on FB and realizing it was written by a family member,
• Or, worse: reading something stupid that is public and realizing I wrote it, (but this is not about me),
• So, I thought I would ponder about people who write REALLY stupid stuff in social media (includes news sites, YouTube comments, FB, Twitter, etc.). You know who you are. Or, at least suspect.

So, if you already know who you are, I thought to myself, why do you do it and can it be stopped?

Why you do it:

1. You feel inferior. To gain attention to how cool, sexy, admired and wonderful you are, you post comments to shock, grab attention, inviting family, friends and strangers to "see me, I am really all these things and I can prove it!" with graphic pictures and language! ( inside, I fear I am not any of these things, so I must keep trying to prove it...and maybe it will come true).
2. You are narcissistic. You truly feel you ARE all these things. Your ego cannot be stopped. You think little of other people, but you need them to feed your insatiable ego. Therefore, you post shocking statements, foul language, and sexual detail. Again, to gain the attention you crave, demand. "See me! How sexy I am! I am beautuful! I work out! I am better than you. NOTICE me and "like" my comments!"
3. You are a pathological liar. You easily lie about anything, at any given time. It "becomes" truth to you. After a while you cannot differentiate between truth and lies.

Can it be stopped?

• Maybe.  Age/time-natural aging and maturing process. Sometimes age matures a person and they develop self-confidence. They gradually realize they no longer have to convince others they are "sexy, wanted by every man/woman who sees them or have to use foul language to get attention".
• Perhaps.  Time-and seeing life and people outside yourself. Time passes and you truly start valuing other people as individuals. Women are smart and funny, men are kind and supportive. You no longer believe it is "all about me". Narcissism fades away, gradually. You truly do become a better person, and embarrassed that you screamed "Me, me, me!" to the world.
• No.  Pathological liar. Maybe you will never change. You will always see life through your own lens, thinking you are convincing others to see the same way. Little do you know that they are only with you momentarily, soon they see you for what you really are, a sad, souless creature.